Monday, December 17, 2007
7:07 AM Y
Post title : haihhhh.sad.
♥ You'll never know the real me.
i don't really get it .why some guys must treat girl this way? do you noe its pretty hurt.haih.i been through this before..half way hanging.don't know what to do.give up ? or not ? but finally its over. and now joanne is having the same prob.i just can't stand wit this kind of guy.but i can't deny, girls do hurt guys alot too. haihhh..just don't ignore people.just speak out like what joanne said.you can ask not to buzz you anymore. love is blind.out of our control.you might do silly things 4 a guy. cut urself and so on?but this normally i don't tel.so stupid.normally brainless ppl like me will do. you want him to cheer u up,but u just can't speak out.when he knew u did such a thing,but he ignored.omg ! pain! when u cried, and he was busying doing something, accidentally changed topic, or in a purpose..! feel like screaming! ahhhhhh !!!! haih.used to tel we miss each other.but u really mean it? i got no idea.but i really do.no doubt.every relationship have problems, is just depends on how u handle it. sometimes you might jealous of something ur bf/gf do,if just a normal fren talk just leave it.don't have to argue 4 tht small tiny matterr.ur bf/gf will never stop loving you after having a talk wit frens.what m i talking? i got no idea.im just too bored.what comes to my mind right now, i just write it down. nothing else to do.he is busy right now,i guess? better not buzz him.haih.what i can do right now is blogging.im not talking to anyone else.but talking to myself. today im abit crazy.sorry la.lonely.no 1 to talk to.stone infront of the comp.type n type n type.! i miss him.what i can do? i can't call.he can't reply me.lets do our things then.i asked whether he miss me or not,he never answer.4get it.i think he's bored wit the word i miss you.haih.i can't sleep. how?! im talking to myself everynight.wtf.im so stupid.sorry i got no1 to talk to.i agree what joanne said..being hate being ignored..the feelings is suck.and i admit i do ignore some ppl too.i know its hurt.im truly sorry. sometimes i also feel like dying.don't know why.this thinking just sudden appear in my mind.i was thinking what if i suicide?or car bang or whateva? will ppl still care 4 me? haih..im sorry,im not a good gf. i just can't be perfect.im trying to but i can't.there's too much thing 4 me to change.im trying to cut down things that u don like it.i don't think u realise.thts all 4 now!
