Monday, December 17, 2007
8:21 AM Y
Post title : thank the person
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Now, Let's talk about love xDD Since I'm so hurt everyday. Ahh ! Can anyone tell me why some human always hurt me. It's like i did something wrong to him only. Sometimes i really really don't wanna have a bfriend. So useless. I know I'm not even a good gfriend but I can Learn and I will. Want me to learn also i need a bfriend werd. Love/Life is so complicated. feel like killing ym self. But i know i kill myself because of love wasnt worth it. Maybe there's someone better in my life But it wasnt my time yet xDD I know and i believe i it. But yet , I always think craps~ Those craps keep appear in my mind. As in....I always imagine when I was walking back home by a road and in a sudden a lorry came and crush me, or i was in the beach den suddenly a shark or something came and eat me up , or someone rape me and kill me. something like that la. Those ways to die.
ahhh! Stress la. When someone don't talk to you or deny you or maybe hates you. The feeling is like..I also don't know how to describe. But it really really sucks. Jut now i was talking to Jason and he keep advising me not to be sad bla bla bla. And he told me .. Maybe we'll die the next second on a earthquick , or the next day on tsunami or the day after tomorrow on accident. He told me to appreciate every moments in my life. Every second of happiness even sadness. Tears and smiles. And he say ...
Everyone one of it is important in your life Appreciate it. I felt so touched. I don't know how he could trow out words like this.
I feel like crying. But i just stop my tears. He's such a nice guy rite ? I felt like whatever that comes out from his blardy mouth makes sence and its worth it listening to him. He's the man xDD By that time .. i promised him... no matter what happen. Don't cry easily. Look forward And never look back again. Forget the past. I'm such a good friend. Since he went to bed already. Let me emo kao kao first. Aihhh ! why guys a re like that ? hurt hurt hurt!
If I could have the most perfect love that would be great. yeah wtf. I will! I'm gonna continue online. Chao :D
